Monday, November 26, 2007

Rampant Workplace Disease

After years of research, finally researchers have achieved a breakthrough in office disease syndromes. The research on this syndrome could possibly alleviate 20-25 % of all workplace illnesses.
Surveys across offices in India have shown that there is a syndrome called Traumatic Managerial No Work Syndrome which has been affecting work place productivity in at least 25% of the work force. Incidence is particularly higher in the workers who have been promoted recently to managerial posts.
Symptoms include severe bouts of Information distress leading to frequent Googling (which has been categorised independently into a disorder called Googlitis), Feelings of Grandeur leading the patient to believe he/she was created for something else, something much better, severe Blog diarrhoea, Verbal diarrhoea leading to discussions on Global Warming and mating habits of Salmon across the seas. Apart from these, intense need to socialise on the net is also noted as a common symptom.
Internet-o-philia which was hitherto categorised as a deformity on its own, has been grouped among the subsets of this disorder. Scientists warn that TMNWS will increase in prevalence across the world with more and more people being promoted to Managerial positions. It is also expected to cause a fall in economy due to the loss in economic productivity. India, United States are among the worst affected.

"Keep out of the reach of children".

From being mere means of entertainment to harbingers of uncomfortable messages, films have come a long way. One such message is conveyed by a latest release. I bet many of the parents present in the theatres, young as well as old, must have squirmed many a time in their seats during the course of the movie. Bravo, for making the parents know that they are not the know-it-alls they assume that they are.

Ambition : an ardent desire for rank, fame, or power b: desire to achieve a particular end.
That is the dictionary meaning of ambition. However, with passing times, I think we need to kind of expand the meaning now.
Ambition : An ardent desire for your child to achieve rank, fame or power / or a desire for your child to achieve a particular end.
Not a bad thing in itself, except that there is a corollary:
Not essentially with the consent or understanding of the child in question.
Now that makes it interesting.

I had a recent conversation with a young, yuppie mother in an upcoming metropolis in India. It was nine in the night, and she was already gearing up to go to bed. She added as an afterthought, " I need to wake up at 4 in the morning". Assuming it must be for morning yoga, I did not ask further. Bang came another after thought, " I need to take my son to the skating class at 5 in the morning".
It is none of my business, technically. But my thoughts did wander to the child. Does a child really enjoy or even want, to skate at 5 in the morning where the sleep could be peppered with so many Peter Pan dreams of lagoons flying over pink flamingoes? Maybe skating is a skill essential to survival suddenly. I am, after all, hopelessly out of touch with the ambitious world.

Every suburban street I walk down is littered with coaching classes of all sizes, shapes and varieties. There are classes for studying, for learning to speak in english, for learning etiquette, dancing, singing....you name it, and it will be taught. Natural inclinations be damned! What can be taught, will be.
I remember a childhood of carefree knee scraping due to falls from neighbourhood trees, fighting over doll weddings and hose pipe clothes-wetting with other little vagabonds. Life is disciplined now. Kids have no time to be vagabonds, and as for the tree-fall knee-scraping, I forgot to mention that there are no neighbourhood trees anymore. Roads don't make a convincing substitute. Or do they?
Trees have been replaced by ever rising towers of achievements expected to be scaled by the erstwhile vagabonds. Running around buildings and playing in the mud have been replaced by a regulated, mechanical drill to school and the umpteen other classes. Child labour anyone? Oh, it is for a secure future? Well, sorry. Guess I have my priorities entirely wrong.
Every kid needs to grow up to become some thing.....I guess music, skating, karate, drawing, is all perfectly essential in all of this. The kid needs to have multiple options, right, even when the only thing he is going to be allowed to do is management, engineering (worse, a combination of both) or medicine. After all, these are the only respectable professions in the world. (Writers are tramps who do not have a stable income, and hello, who said music is a career?)
The price of a respectable profession (which you feel sick about after a precise period of 2 months in it) is something which is invaluable to the inculcation of humanity....no wonder kids these days grow up to be violent, selfish and aggressive individuals. They have been taught at home to emerge superior, to win, to stand first. How does a child's brain distinguish between the right and the wrong when the lines are blurred in the first learning ground, the home? No, it is more important that the child tops in school. Being a good human being cannot guarantee a management degree right...?
If there are any kids reading this, kids, please stop reading this and get back to your books. You need to top in that unit test tomorrow.
P.S. Merriam-webster, You really need to change that definition.

My Peculiar Aristocratic Title is:
Her Royal Highness Anupama the Omnipresent of Buzzing St Helens
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Too late.

Rush rush rush....the hours go by....

Time looks out from every corner, waiting to grab your eye....

Life competes for your attention with a myriad other things,

Later, you say, as you attend to the next chore.

Lie in bed every night, mind far far away

But not far enough to escape moribund chores

Life peeks out again, timidly

Waiting for your glance, waiting for your chance

Alas, but you miss all the chances

Life runs away, one fine day,

You want to seize it,

But it is too late in the day.

Friday, November 16, 2007

Sensuality in stone


And maybe it was his part
Only one moment in his life
To be close to your heart?
Or was he fated from the start
To live for just one fleeting instant
Within the purlieus of your heart?
-Ivan Turgenev.

Maybe it is not sensuality in stone only..... I should probably name it sensuality in mortar, sensuality in concrete, sensuality in tar, and sensuality in water too.

Mumbai.....the city which represents the multitude of realised dreams this country stands for. The standpoint of the Indian world, where everyone feels like the Monarch of whatever he or she surveys....the city where the royalty of the past is the base of the equality of the present, and the sovereignty of the future.

When I first set foot into Mumbai 12 years back for a 2 day holiday, I was overawed by the city. I watched the throngs of people with amazed fascination for their energy. Deep down somewhere, I probably wished I had half of that exuberance. Standing at the Gateway and looking at the ocean spread out in front of me, my mind conjured up wild, colourful visions of magnificence, of the beauty that life can be.

I had an opportunity to visit the city again, after 9 years, for a post graduate entrance examination. My opinions of the world had changed from what my adolescent mind had naively presumed, and I expected, in the casual arrogance of youth, that nothing could awe me anymore. I had forgotten that Bombay is a force to reckon with, and the overconfident are often the victims of subtle seduction. The city worked its charm once upon with me. As I strolled the by-ways of the colonial south Bombay, or "Town" as the quintessential Mumbaikar often calls it, I felt the charm of the city....the worn out facades of the majestic centuries old buildings bring India's past gently but unavoidably into one's focus. I wonder if anyone can stroll by the Victoria terminus crossroads without wondering for a second at the past which is so exuberantly alive in the face of the bustling present.

I stopped for a bite at an old Iranian eatery called the Sassanian Boulangerie, which was run by an old Parsi gentleman, who regaled me with the story of how the Parsis stayed back in India loyally even when they were offered free British citizenship after independence. As I stood at Nariman point and looked out, life once again beckoned to me, and I was reminded of a childish vow I had made to myself, and suddenly for a moment, going beyond all realities which stood just beyond the road, I renewed that vow with myself. Bombay had again lured me into its enigma, and I was, without realising it, on the way to becoming hopelessly addicted to this maze in the form of a city.

I moved back to my daily life, and forgot about the encounter. Three years later, as luck would have it, I found my dream job in Bombay. I moved in, and began the arduous task to understand myself in a city of a thousand unknown names and faces.

Everyday as I plug in to my music in the train, hanging precariously at the edge of the doors of the trains, I marvel at life, I marvel at speed, I marvel at the power of the city....I feel the power seeping into my very bones at times....I can feel the heartbroken despair of the Portuguese at having to hand over their very own "Bom-Bahia"(good bay) to the British in lieu of money.....I can sense the foresight of the British in wishing the merger of the seven islands into one landmass, into one city....I can understand the passion of the people who undertook the herculean task of metamorphosing the detached land into one pulsating mass of energy and ambition.

Every bit of Bombay is power hungry. I am not surprised that it houses Asia's oldest Stock Exchange....the quest for excellence existed way back then, and runs in the blood now, and I know it will continue to define the city.

The angry lash of the waves against the docks, the rock Gateway which commemorates the magnetisation of the British to this mesmerising land, it is an ode to everything alive within man. It is a vibrating testimony of what men live by....it is a symphony in stone, a temptress of hearts, who enchants, who pulls and throws off equally ruthlessly.

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Monday, November 12, 2007

About me.

Drops of water, make my coffee die
I stare at the cup,
Wondering whether the distortion is the reflection
Or is it actually me?
Not me, not me, not me, I cry...
I catch a rainbow in the mirror,
Think it is my face,but
Realise its a flash of cloth catching the light
Who am I without the rainbow?
Aromas mix within me, coffee, tea and love gone cold...
A glint of a diamond from out, and a cut of gold from in.....
Not me, not me, not me, I cry
Curls of smoke rise in the distance,
Burning hearts, burning souls, a tempering fire
Not me, not me, not me, I cry....
Horizons and sunlight, dusk and dawn
Deep dreams, and velvet life
Not me, not me, not me, I cry!

"Leave" me alone!

I have always had an aptitude to rebel without actually meaning to. Offending authorities has always been a side-effect of my activities, and though I may always not want, I always enjoy it....teachers yelling their lungs out while I quietly look on, my gaze straight into their eyes....ah, the glory! I know it smacks of sadism, but that is the way life is, I guess...


In my new job, I had been getting along with my seniors for a period of a month straight....and honestly, I was getting a little uncomfortable....life can get miserable without its daily hint of drama. An opportunity presented itself surely enough, and not one to let opportunities go, I seized it with both hands.


Scene 1: A week before Diwali. My tickets have been booked for home. I wring my hands every free moment in anticipation of Mum's diwali sweets, endless roaming around on the roads back home, the unwatched movies....the wait is almost unbearable. In the midst of my day dream, I am shaken awake rudely, with a message from my immediate superior that he wants to see me. I walk down a flight of stairs wondering what it could be. I walk inside the conference room. The air conditioning seems a little more chilly than usual, and I wring my hands again, in a different kind of anticipation, which is more like apprehension. He gives me a look and asks me to sit down. He is going through some papers and I am forced into the maddening act of waiting for him to speak. To ameliorate the conditions, I start staring at his nascent goatee beard. I have traced the roots of all the errant hair which are growing out of the limits of the goatee, and have also almost prepared an efficient blueprint for it to grow the way it should, when the motherland of the goatee moves in a most unsightly fashion. I realise my superior is trying to speak, which is why the goatee suddenly seems mobile. I am about to blurt "You need a trim..." instead I say, "Yes, sir?" He says, " The project you are handling seems to be going well." I look down in mock humility, while in reality my cheeks are being effused with a most narcissistic glow. He continues for a bit about work, and then I seize the chance and say, "I am going home on the sixth for Diwali". He looks at me, my hackles are already rising. He says, "All right!" I cannot believe that I got by so easily. I heave a sigh of relief and walk out with my head held high.


Scene II: The day I am about to leave. My train is in the afternoon, so I stretch lazily in bed till the office hour is long past. The phone rings ominously, and I look at the number. I start in my bed....it is my big boss! I pick up the call and his voice says quietly, "Good morning." I answer in a tepid tone, "Good morning". I think I hear background music piping in the distance. he says, "I hear you are going on a 3 day leave". I muster up all the courage I have managed to accumulate since childhood, and answer, "Yes, sir. Is it a problem?" He answers, "You have not filled in the leave application." By this point I have realised the potential of this conversation to turn into a full blown argument. Excited by this revelation I listen on.


I hear things about me being irresponsible and how many leaves I have taken in the past. Now the phone conversation has assumed the dimensions of a boxing match. I couldnt have faced myself had I let such a wonderful opportunity go by, I seize it full on...
and suddenly, I answer, " Maybe. But there is no way I can cancel this leave. Can we talk after I am back?" I can feel the temperature rising several notches, as my boss says, " I will be extremely upset if you leave today". I answered, " Yeah. Speak to you when I am back, sir. Have a great diwali". The background music has turned into a Mozart, Beethoven and Bach mixed symphony by then and the cacophony is deafening.

I manage to rebel yet again and I am filled with the exhilaration of a battle won. Now I can safely say "Leave" me alone!
P.S. I think Life should have some real background music instead of just imagined music. It would make it so much more fun!

Friday, November 02, 2007

Matrimonial meetings 1

Warning: Some sentences in the following account are in an obsolete form of English which went out of India along with the last Englishman on the ship).
FRIENDLY ADVICE TO READERS: A minute description of my disastrous meetings with two prospective matrimonial candidates follows. Kindly refrain from gagging and please maintain decorum of body and mind. Second meeting will be described in section 2 .
SECTION I - MUMBAI MASALA


Candidate A : For purpose of convenience he will henceforth be referred to as Mr.Mumbai since he has the fortune of hailing from the glorius city.(and the city has the misfortune of being his hometown). First initiation of contact occurs on the eve of the meeting, at night. I happen to be slightly out of breath since I have just arrived from my weekly jumping session which is addressed popularly as Salsa. Mr.Mumbai asks me after all niceties, (I admit, I am impressed that people can be nice at an hour before midnight. There is one small nod of approval as one item on my fastidious list gets checked) about the venue for the aforementioned (Godforsaken) meeting. I skip all niceties, since it is against my very disposition, and as is my character, tell him a convenient location. Again, by default, the location I have mentioned is convenient for me, but I refrain from asking about the same for him. (NOTE: Justifications: If he lives in Mumbai, he should know the places better than I do. Knowing does reduce a modicum of inconvenience. Plus, as a woman, I am entitled to chivalry privileges which are extinct (erroneously labelled dead) in the audacious modern world but are very crucial to me nonetheless) After that self dialogue, as I realise that the irritating crackling sound which I mistake to be static is his voice, I gather my reserves and reiterate the location once more. (Further details omitted to maintain reader's interest). The hot steamy afternoon gathers all its strength to increase my already heightened crabby feelings of irritiation. I reach the appointed venue about 15 minutes late (for justifications refer to above note, part 2.) He calls on my cellular telephone which has suddenly assumed the dimensions of a hangman's noose in my exhausted eyes, and I look around trying to find a vague resemblance to the photographic paper which has been shown to me the previous day. A fat man waddles out of a car and tells me my name. I shrink at the audacity and I mutter " How can he tell me my name? He is supposed to ask". But popular etiquette has me behave otherwise, and I shake his outstretched hand with all the warmth of Siachen, the melting glacier. The pattern continues throughout the afternoon. I have seldom come across such open, frank expressions of the suppressed brute in our civilised society. He exhibits a distressing and annoying propensity to rush inside doors first without holding them open for me, to order all the food himself and to not allow me to use anything resembling words. The last straw comes when he does not even open the car doors for me. I conclude with unshakeable finality that I would not choose him to be my mate even if I had been prehistoric myself.(NOTE TO READER: I do not pretend to be the soul of niceness either. You cannot be nice when lunch conversation is peppered with how your (imbecile) lunch partner topped school and college and won debates, AND all the food is also ordered by the imbecile in question. Sharing the same sunsign also adds no glory to the conversation).

[That will be all in this part. Section II, which contains explicit details of a similar second meeting, will follow by email approximately at an interval of 48 hours. Thank you for exhibiting exemplary patience throughout the reading.]